5.25.12
5.25.12
I need to vent…
SO I hate my current job A FUCKING LOT and I am working on getting out of there as soon as possible due to the fact that I dont want to hurt my child because of the stress. Its just completely unnecessary the pressure that is being put on me and the expectations of me while I am 6 months pregnant.
Due to the crap job mentioned above I was left with 12 hours so I have been working with my mother at her job for the past few days and for a while now my mother has been trying to get me a permanent job there as her helper and eventually my dads secretary so this is kindof like my audition…. WEEEELL Ive been doing really well all I have to do at this point is make labels for customer files and file them… Today I finished up and thought it was 5 so I surfed the web a bit waiting on mom to finish because I didnt want to get started on filing it takes like 15 min- 20 min and I didnt want to hold her up so I was just hanging out till it was time to go…. The boss came in and started talking to mom and saw I was surfing the web and didnt say anything but when he left mom came over and said you know it doesnt look good you surfing the internet when your supposed to be working and I said well I thought it was 5 I was just waiting on you and she said… its not 5 look at the clock! It was 4:50… so mom didnt act like it was a big deal but she was picking on me about it and of course I was feeling like shit for it :/ So the night went on I tried to take my mind off of it and later when Chris came by and we were about to leave mom had had some drinks and she brought it up in front of Chris and of course he had something to say about it so now I feel even more like shit. I really hope I didnt fuck this up for myself. I really need a good job like this. If I get it it would be a raise in pay for me, less strenuous for me while Im pregnant, aaaand benefits and I would be working with my parents and the guys that work there are all really nice so I wont be stressed in the way of the people around me.
Other than work stress…. Im getting bigger….. everyday…. As a big girl already I didnt think that getting bigger would bother me because Im used to people seeing me as the fat chick it doesnt bother me but I have never been this big before and its not because I cant control my eating or Im lazy its because Im growing a child! Its really discouraging that Im just about too big for all of my pants now I think there are like 3 pair I can wear and only 1 of those other than my khakis for work I can wear for long periods of time. I honestly dont like going out because I hate the challange of finding something to wear that doesnt accentuate my belly. My best friends have become my pj pants and my shirts I cut the necks out of but Im not one of those ‘I wear pjs in public’ people….
ok carpal tunnel kicking in cant type anymore of my fingers are gunna fall off x.x YAY BEING PREGNANT lol
